Proceed

I wanted to change my habit but I never did,
Tried to change for the better but never succeed,
Walked the wrong path but never receded,
Thought of the future but never proceed;

Is this who I am, a man of merely words,
Is this who I am, a man without actions,
Is this who I am, a man full of dreams,
Is this who I am, stuck here forever, never to proceed?

Maybe I should stop brooding,
Maybe I should start repenting,
Maybe I should stop pausing,
And start proceeding to the future I had long been painting;

Perhaps the way there will be full of obstacles,
Perhaps it will be full of pleasure,
Perhaps it will be just a plain path,
Anyway, I had to proceed no matter which it's gonna be;

Could the future be the same as I'd painted,
Could it be better than that I'd planned,
Could it be different from what I'd expected,
Even so, there is nothing to do but proceed and see;

I had to proceed even if the future is bleak,
I had to proceed even if the future is far from reach,
I had to proceed even if it cost more that I can give,
I had to proceed because it is my destiny.

*I had always pause on my way, but I hope that I could keep on proceeding even if it takes me forever, to reach the goal which is uncertain, the future that we never get to totally control.... Because I want to believe, that whatever will be, it is my destiny....

**This is originally a poem, but maybe it could be made into a song(where did this confidence come from anyway?)....Haha....Anyone expert in songs and stuff, please feel free to voice your opinion....^^ Oh, those not expert can voice your opinions too of course, haha....^^