Life....

So, let's get straight to the point. What gets you ticking? Is it the pile of undone assignments? Is it the report you don't know how to proceed on? Is it the fear of the unknown meeting with the lecturer you intend to go for internship with? Is it the thoughts of the multiple tests coming up for the next week? Is it the nagging voice inside your head telling you to choose all sort of co-curricular activities while at the same time telling you how you could never measure up to the expectation of any of those activity? Is it the thought of going on an outing and to talks and end up not having the weekend for yourself? Is it the nightmare of not yet ready for the exam which is just around the corner? Is it the pain in your heart as you fail to fulfill whatever you had envision to do everyday of your life? Is it the disappointment you experienced due to your lack of ability to do stuff? Or is it just you, yourself, being unable to keep your emotion stable, over-thinking stuff, making problems worse than they seem, making faces, repelling people, go emotional, trying to let go of the beast inside of you? How long has it been, since you had a place to throw off all your load, to turn away from all the problem, focusing all your frustration on unrelated people, hurting them with things you don't mean just to get loads off your chest? How much do you long for a mountain high enough yet you could climb, and be there on the top, knowing no one could hear you no matter how loud you shout, and shout out as loud as you could and end up in tears, thinking of how pathetic you are for losing control of your life, of yourself, of everything? How much do you wish you could just stand back up and act as if nothing had happened? Well, you could, just pretend nothing happen, go on, with life, with work, with friends, with family. You could do all that, because if people with life harder than your could success, people with life worse than you can be happy, people with life inadequate of necessities can stand strong, why can't you? So, be it, whatever comes, will go, every bad things, good things, things you paid notice to, things you failed to notice, everything! Everything that comes will go, and that applies to life as well. So, why waste it being emotional, being pathetic, being a loser? Just go through life as your feet leads you, whatever might happen, they will come to pass... Just do whatever you can with all your might, which you have but never use. Make changes little by little, changes to yourself, not others, let them do that themselves. Over time, you might not realise, but you are a different person, a changed person, not changed to become like the others, not to blend in, not to be accepted, but to stand out, to be yourself, to be true... *ps. this is just a crazy ranting which relates to no one and by no means should be even taken seriously, I won't, so, you shouldn't as well....